I am..

The courrier guy rang our door. There is a bank card for halil. He is naturally at work. I introduced myself as his wife. The guy asked for an ID.. i showed my malaysian ID...not accepted. He asked for our Evlilik Cuzdan (marriage book) as an ID instead..we dont have that but we have a paper showing we r married.

I looked at the place where i last left that paper. No where to be found. Frustrated.

I called him at work to ask whether he had done anything to do. He said he put it at bla bla bla. In the rush..i couldnt find that paper. More frustration.

I asked the guy whether my sis in law could take the bank card on my behalf. He said only halil's brother can. I knocked özlem's door to ask whether halim was there. Nope. He wasnt. Called Kerim (another brother). He was somewhere else too. The courrier guy left..he said he will come back whenever ..i only need to give them a call.

Frustration... i felt.... so deeply.. Frustrated coz i could not take the card which was in front of me. Frustrated coz ı could not find the paper.. Angry at halil for moving things without telling me. Sad from the helplessness of it all. This is such a small matter..but why r the small pearly drops of tears falling from my eyes? I feel so helpless.....

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