Another talk on Color

The issue of color was again raised in the people around me when the pregnancy tester tested positive..

How will the baby look like? Like the father? or the mother? or a combination of both? Will the baby look totally like a Malaysian?
Or maybe totally like the father's bloodline?

That kind of speculations i am sure were in everybody's mind..both in malaysia n turkey..i am sure my mom n dad were hoping that there would be some whiteness in the baby..or they may have hoped that the baby would not have a nose so flat ..i think they too may have shared the thinking where being white is superior than being colored.. My family in turkey were all no doubt busy speculating as well.. though i dont think color was an issue to them much.. looks.. who will follow who was more important..

What about Halil n i? well..we were so excited for the arrival for our first baby.. ..we tried to imagine how the baby may have looked like..halil didnt really care whether the baby look like me or him.. all he wanted was for our baby to be born strong, safe n healthy... me?.. if i am to confess..i was kindda hoping that the baby wouldnt have so flat a nose! heheheheh..

So when hatice was born...n then our second child was born.... well.. u know the rest... both have flat noses :0) .. hatice definitely has my skin.. baddin his skin is neither white not brown...both r born with special features of their own...a bit here n there.. u can see patches of features of halil n i..characterwise is the same too..both have a little bit of halil n me.. n they definitely have their own unique identities...

Both r growing up to be their own unique selves...bringing us love, joy, sadness, madness n everything u can think of.. no matter the color of their skins......no matter how they look like..they r my pride n joy... and nothing can take my love away from them...

On that first night at the hospital... when anne looking at me... seeing how i couldnt take my eyes off my daughter... she asked me...

*Anne olmak guzel mı?*

(is it good to be a mother?)

Full with emotion... i didnt ..couldnt trust myself to answer her verbally.. i just nodded...

But i would have said to her if i could..

*Yes anne... the best feeling in the world!*

Thank You for hopping by...Hope to see u again the next time..