Sunday, December 9, 2007

Baba in memory....Day 1

Haticeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... baddinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ...i called my kids to come to my bed.

I hugged them.....and kissed them.....and spoke to them in tukish....

kids, do u remember about me telling u that when Allah calls u to return back to him.... and u will return? Remember that Allah had called ur grandma back..to leave the mortal life and come back to him??

Hatice looked at me with her big eyes and said.....*did Allah call dede back?* tears started to fall on her cheeks......baddin was trying to act *macho*....his eyes were wet too but when i asked him was that tears? he replied that something got into his eyes... he was not crying. Hatice was sobbing then...

After some time..still hugging them, i asked them how they felt at that moment....

Hatice replied.... *i wish dede can die a few days later*...
and baddin added that * i am happy coz i didnt cry*...

it was totally obvious that both were distraught...sad beyond description....

i told them that they have every right to be sad... after all, they have just lost their dede... but everytime the sadness threaten to drown their sanity... i asked them to remember 3 things...

1. their dede is now pain free....do they prefer a living dede but in pain or do they prefer a dede not living anymore or pain free...

2. their dede is finally reunited with their baba anne (grandma)...well.. it is true... baba will insyaAllah eventually be reunited with anne after Qiamat... for now.. both will be put under the same grave..... the kids think that they r doing something romantic right now heheheheh

3. their dede is probably happy where he is now. He had been looking forward to dying. And from all the things that their dede had done in his life.... he will most go to heaven.

They had bathed him today.... and from what halil told me... baba's face is very peaceful....smiling even... baba will be buried tomorrow after zohor time at the family graveyard at the other side of the bridge...

Thank YOU for all ur condolences..i am sorry i cant answer them one by one. ....

Today, we all gathered at baba's apartment.The apt is a bit dusty from 2 weeks of no care... words spread very fast... very early in the morning even, visitors started coming in... esp those who loved him best.... the people he was a hoca to...

I went there by 8.15am... as i reached there...left and right... people were busy..preparing for the advertisement to give to the newspapers... the zaim siblings calling here and there informing the tv channels of baba's demise.... calls to relatives..... calls from those who heard the news on tv....and people coming in and out to give their condolences....

i suppose meşe is the most emotionally drained one today as the whole day she has not stop talking on the phone..repeating over and over again the same thing to so many people....her mind totally numb from giref and exhaustion... that when the prime minister's wife called to convey her condolences.... she just simple had no idea who she was hehehe...she only realised that it was the prime minister's wife after she had handed the phone over to her hubby..the prime minister....The president called too....and later his wife called....all conveying their condolences....Both the prime minister and the president will insyaAllah be joining the jenazah prayer.... and later the burial...

MasyaAllah.. baba is very well loved... in the morning... a group of his beloved assistants (some r professors..some persuing other jobs)... without looking at the Al quran... in turn, they started to read the yaasin... and some holy verses.... and made the doa....

The same thing in the afternoon and later in the evening...

they offered to get the food sent over for tomorrow's doa reading after the burial... they took charge of the advertisement matter... they took care of the graveyard burial/digging... some organised that 5 busses (45 seaters per bus) to bring all to the graveyard...they offered at least 100 chairs for people coming in for the doa tomorrow.....some organised the police to lead the road as the jenazah... as baba will be transported to the other side of the bridge tomorrow...security will be tight too as many will flock the camii (masjid) for praying for baba.....i will tell u the whole thing tomorrow....but one thing for sure... the close family members will have to wear a security tag...if we ever dream of coming near baba's coffin...it will be haywire tomorrow...i really dunno what will happen.. but i know one thing though... i want to be there..to send baba off to his final destination...to say goodbye...i need to...

As countless teas were served today... as countless plates of borek being presented to the guests today.... safa, merve, hatice and zeynep..were in the back room.. crying...looking for some form of comfort in each other's presence.... zeynep and hatice definitely rarely left merve's side...baddin... though he doesnt show it.... he too is sad beyond words...

As for my halil...He accepts what had happened... he is in fact happy that baba is gone... coz baba didnt suffer much pain even though he had bone cancer... halil is happy coz he was on duty that last nite to look after baba...... he is happy that that morning..his kids got to see a happy dede....he was happy that his wife had done her best to look after his dad....and he is happy most because... baba went peacefully, as he had dreamed of...but the pain of losing a dad close to his heart... is beyond description.....he is being strong...and i intend to be by his side whenever he needs me.

Our view were locked on the tv a few times today....as they showed baba's memoir on tv.... tears couldnt stop falling in our hearts as we watch the face of the one we love on tv...yet..he is gone...

These r the links to the news clipping of baba's death...

IN ENGLİSH (thanks jewel hnna)

http://www.todayszaman.com/tz-web/detaylar.do?load=detay&link=129026

IN TURKİSH


http://www.zaman.com.tr/haber.do?haberno=622786

zaman gazetesi.


http://www.yenisafak.com.tr/gundem/?t=09.12.2007&c=1&i=86590


Yeni Şafak



http://www.yenisafak.com.tr/gundem/?t=09.12.2007&c=1&i=86603



Yeni Şafak



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22 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

My heart goes to you and family.

Take care!

Hugs & kisses,

Ms I & mini Ms I

December 10, 2007 at 12:44:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Kak Elle said...

couldn't help but tears just roll down my cheeks...well written simah and from your entry I realise baba is very well known person otherwise the PM and President won't be calling to convey their condolences..how I wish I can watch the final journey live on tv.

take care and hugs

December 10, 2007 at 1:42:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger ~ GAB ~ said...

I am catching up as much as I can. It's been a while. The last time I came in, In read what you wrote in the local newspaper in Istanbul. Nice! And, and... your story in Istanbul is always nice to read...

Have a good day Simah.

December 10, 2007 at 3:35:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger jewelhenna said...

salam simah, i found this english version of baba's news in todayszaman.com. thought it would be useful for your friends who don't understand/read turkish. i read the turkish news online everyday (to keep up with news on the war with PKK) so i was able to spot this article. hope you don't mind me posting the link here.

http://www.todayszaman.com/tz-web/detaylar.do?load=detay&link=129026

from what i've read, baba has led a very colourful and amazing life, and he will be sorely missed and remembered by many. take care, my friend. i share your sadness. take your time to grief and come back when you're ready. we'll be here for you.

*hugs*

December 10, 2007 at 4:06:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Unknown said...

Salam Sis, Heard about the illness and been following silently on Baba's health condition.

Didn't have internet link for the weeknd and heard about Baba's return to Allah from KakElle when I checked her blog this morning.

My heart sank but I know, his leaving is with the redha that you'll have taken openly in your heart...It's the best for him as only Allah knows the best for His servants...

My do'a is for you all to brace the coming days with strength and my fatihah is for Almarhum...May Allah place his soul amongst the solihin...aminnn..

Take care kak.

December 10, 2007 at 4:52:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Queen Of The House said...

Simah ... masyaallah he was such a well-loved and respected man! May he be placed amongst the most beloved by Allah, may his soul rest in peace now. It is such a great loss to the family and also to Turkey.

May this loss be easy on you, Simah, Halil, and all the Zaim family. Take care. ((((hugs))))

December 10, 2007 at 5:36:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger sue said...

Al-Fatihah ...ur baba will always be remembered..how's the kids now..?

December 10, 2007 at 7:36:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Alinlai said...

:( semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat aminnnnnnnn!!!

December 10, 2007 at 7:58:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Simah & family,
My condolences. I've been silently reading your entries on Baba's hospitalization. Only can pray for his smooth final journey & may the whole family be kept strong & together. Al-Fatihah. Sesungguhnya kita milik Allah & sesungguhnya kita akan kembali kepadaNya & sesungguhnya kepada Tuhan kita pasti kembali.
Dont worry about replying to comments(that's why I don't want to msg). Just take your time esp with the kids & hubby!

December 10, 2007 at 11:08:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Innalillahiwainna ilaihi roji'un.. Dear Simah, just knew abt the passing of baba :-( (did not read your blog over the weekend) .. am truly sorry.. my deepest condolences to you and the Zaim's family.. may Allah merahmati roh allahyarham.. you be strong there..ok.. (((big hugs)))

December 10, 2007 at 11:12:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

ALLAH RAHMET EYLESİN VE AİLESİNE SABIR,DUALARIMIZ SENİNLE OLACAKTIR.
TÜM AİLESİN BAŞI SAĞOLSUN.

December 10, 2007 at 12:04:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger IBU said...

Simah & Halil,

Got ur sms alert on the demise and I stood frozen for a while.

It's seems just like yesterday "knowing" him from both you & halil.

Our deepest condolence to the whole family. Semoga roh Allahyarham dicucuri rahmat & ditempatkan bersama orang2 beriman.

Take care sis. Hugs for Hatice & Baddin.

December 10, 2007 at 4:41:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger zino said...

salam takziah dari kami sekeluarga..

December 10, 2007 at 6:34:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger Mummy Rizq said...

Innalillah... semoga BABA akan sentiasa tenang di sisiNya...

December 11, 2007 at 1:39:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Al Fatihah
semoga dicucuri rahmat dari-Nya.
takziah utk simah sekeluarga.

December 11, 2007 at 3:26:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger ~ GAB ~ said...

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December 11, 2007 at 3:39:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger ~ GAB ~ said...

My comment earlier was made after I was reading some other entries. I missed the point to say my deepest condolence to you and family after returning to this entry to leave my comment.

May your Baba be with all the blessings from Allah.

December 11, 2007 at 3:41:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

assalamualaikum Shima,
Akak baru buka blog shima and read about the news. Rasanya baru saja I read about him being hospitalised. Semoga dicucuri rahmat rohnya. He didn't suffer forlong. Ihope shima redha and be strong for the next few days ahead. Kami semua disini doakan untuk shima.
Al-Faatihah.

December 11, 2007 at 4:46:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Mama Rock said...

simah, i just got online and saw your entry. my condolence to you and family...semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat, AlFatihah.

December 11, 2007 at 5:11:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Al fatihah...

simah...take care..

December 11, 2007 at 5:38:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Unknown said...

simah.....MY CONDOLENCES to you and the family. A departure of loved ones, and especially one as sweet and adorable as ur dede ....is a great loss no matter how we try to cope with it.

when i called u the other day, i called to ask how he was doing in his sick bed.....little did i expect for the news that he was gone only a couple of hours before.

Al Fatihah.....

idham @ arif.

December 11, 2007 at 7:21:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger simah said...

ON BEHALF OF THE ZAİM FAMİLY, tTHANK YOU FO YOUR CONDOLENCES

December 11, 2007 at 9:54:00 AM GMT+2  

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