Salam Mulia

Allahu Allah

Oh Allah the Almighty

Protect me and guide me

Thru ur love and mercy

Ya Allah dont deprieve me

From beholding ur beauty

I was scolded by my best-friend-ever Mona!! She called my hp (yes..it is back!) and scolded me! It was 2 minutes of non stop scolding!! ...

THE Reason? I was missing in action for so long n she couldnt contact me....my blog was not updated..i was MİA.... she wanted to relay the message that 2 of our TESL friends' fathers have left this world.... Al Fatihah to Itique and Dayah.... and intan..thanks 4 the message u left at my chatbox... i was able to convey my condolences to them thru the phone... To Itique n Dayah... i hope u will be strong in this time of ur life...



The iftars? Well... The first was on Saturday 2 weeks ago...I woke up that morning with a pain in my tummy. By the time, i could wake up that morning, it was then i discovered that our fridge was broken!!! Can u imagine my panic? we would be having 22 people for iftar (children n adults of the Zaim family) and no fridge??? It took me at least one hour to empty the fridge... and luckily... there r mahture yenge, muyessa yenge and özlem in our apt block...!! but can u imagine? people coming... loads of food to be prepared...no ice(cold) water...İ was about to cry...But somehow...i managed to get thru the day/night with success....and of course, all the leftover food was distributed to everybody... semua main tapau hehehehe...The rest of the iftars went well as well..



i may not be an important person in this world.. i am not in any humanitarian effort..nor will i be remembered for my beauty... but at least if i die now...at least someone can say... *well..i know a malaysian bride who can cook turkish food well*.....i tried to snap photos of the food i cooked using my old non digital camera.. but i guess, i have lost touch with it coz all the pictures i snapped turned out fuzzy.... sorry guys.. no luck there! i am shy too to ask to borrow özlem's camera too often cpz i borrowed her digital twice (one for iftar at school n at the time the teachers were here)..my digital camera is still at the nikkon servis...



I used to think that once both kids r at school, i will be stuck in front of the pc 24/7... from the updates of this blog.. u can see that it is not the case eh? In fact, subconsciously, i try to stay away from the pc.... not that i dont miss u all... i do......i suppose i am just in this phase of life when i need to deal with what is happening in my life....i need to adjust both my mental as well as my physical freedom...perhaps this empty nest syndrome is making me depressed with my realising it that i try to cut my contact with people? i dunno..i am simply adjusting. i am trying to fill in the lost blanks of the fragments of my life..am i making sense?

And on the 4th... on the day i should be feeling happy coz it was my birthday.... news from the homeland left me feeling betrayed... the memory of the past rehaunted me...i was reminded of one of the reasons i felt that i needed to escape Malaysia...making me feel fragile inside... as i unleashed my sadness to him... as he held me in his arms...trying to comfort my breaking heart....i just cant believe how some people just dont change......Halil is right.... after 33 years of living...i should be immuned to this...but why cant i?

And on the Lailatul Qadar night.... i wish i had my camera with me... u should have seen it...all mosques were wonderfully lighted... thousands flocked to the famous mosques ...it was a total celebration... and we.. thinking of going to the less famous mosque to avoid the crowd... we were wrong! even at 10pm... it was still totally overcrowded!! and the best part of all... i get to kiss the case containing our Prophet Muhammad's beard...it is black in color..the beard i mean.... i assume our prophet had black hair then....

Anyway...Aidil Fitri.. or Bayram in turkish is coming soon....From the bottom of our hearts....
From Halil to Nur Hatice to Sabahaddin and me....

Hayırlı Bayram Mubarek Olsun!

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

Maaf Zahir dan Batin

p.s... apologies of the unanswered comments..will try to answer them soon..



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