Update of these days

Hatice cried the most heart breaking tears imaginable earlier on. Tears just seemed to flow non stop down her cheeks as she listened to the quran reading by a guest from adapazarı (near sapanca) tonite at his dede's place. After some time, she went to the back room, still in so much grief, cheeks still flooded with her tears. When i went there and hugged her, her tears still flowed heAvily. Nothing that Merih or Meşe said or done managed to stop her from sobbing. It broke my heart to see her suffer that way. She had and is still missing her dede. Her small heart is breaking...in a way i had never seen before.She has a very sensitive heart and the loss of her dede is affecting her far too deep. Looking at her tonite, i realised that going back to Malaysia this summer is not an option anymore. It is now a must. She needs to get to know her grandparents in Malaysia...hatice n baddin need to have at least a grandparent to fill in the void in their hearts.Please pray for her heart to be smiley again soon... the same with baddin... he is hiding his feelings inside...i just dunno what to do...

Today is the 5th day of baba's death. After the funeral that night, after maghrib prayer, the doa reading was held. around 250 people of relatives and closest friends joined in the doa. The empty apartment on the 5th floor was opened to cater the presence of the male guests while baba's apt on the 6th floor was opened for the ladies. From that day onwards, visitors kept coming in to convey their condolences. Many without being asked read quranic verses that they memorised...Doa for baba's soul.Normally, the doa reading (with relatives n friends invited) are done on the 7th day. But because 7th day will be sunday and the kids needed to go home early since there will be school the next day, it was postponed to tomorrow (saturday). Another doa will be done again on the 42th day and on the 50th day (if i am not mistaken)...

Alhamdulillah so far food was not a problem. Türk Milli Vakfı sponsored food for 2 days and Prof. Sanahattin Zaim Anafen primary school sponsored on the 3rd day... Other than that, food did come from relatives as well... countless börek came.. the same with baklava and dessert. For tomorrow, approximately 150 people are expected to come (it may be more..i dunno)... again, Anafen primary school will sponsor the food together with the waitress to serve the food... Alhamdulillah... everyone is since in lending a helping hand.

As to ask Alinlai's question.. do we all wear black for the funeral. No.. there is no such a rule here..but people normally prefer wearing dark coloured clothing (except me)...in general, the ladies wear pants or skirts (black normally).But again.. like i said.. there is no rule against wearing any other color... The male ones usually wear pants and formal shirt.

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Halil and a few others were on tv live...a program to discuss baba... i am so proud of him. He was good... in the way he made his points... the way he chose his words... he is a natural in front of a camera.... this is the second time i saw him speaking to the public... the first time was when they had that nite honouring baba (when he was alive).. i was impressed by him... tonite he did it again...i think baba will be proud of him if can see his lil boy tonite...

The eid..Kurban bayram in turkish and Hari Raya Aidil Adha inBahasa Melayu Baku...

From this Zaim family in Turkey, we wish you all the best for this bayram/eid/raya.

Maaf Zahir Batin... Hakkınız Helal et.

I need time to collect myself. ... that is why i am taking my leave from this blogging world for a while...Perhaps i will take avery short break..i dunno.... i will come back when i am ready......


I really appreciate all the kind words u showered me with in my time of need... esp during baba's sickness and death...but i need to settle my emotional balance..as well as trying to minimise the effects of the loss of their dede....hatice and baddin need their mom and dad...

I had written a short entry in Today's Zaman Newspaper regarding baba on the 12.12.2007.
This is the link..

http://www.todayszaman.com/tz-web/detaylar.do?load=detay&link=129157


This is the lyrics of the song that is being played right now in english..

When i took first steps to walk

My parents were there to help

My father held one of my hands

My mother held the other

My lord always love them

Dont separate them from your mercy

Dont deprieve them of your compassion

My lord Always love them

Dont separate them from your heaven

Keep us united in paradise

Now that they are far away

I am far away

My lord you are the closest one

To everyone who lives