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Sunday-22.07.07

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It was past their bed time...was it 10.30pm? i am not so sure... We just got back from baba... a superb dinner at baba's prepared by Kerim...

As we reached the outside part of the apartment, halil and i (n the kids) parted ways.. he needed to go to the bank....Well.. well.. and i couldnt find my key! Searched i did my totally full to the brim sling bag...... but after twice looking at every crook n nook of the bag.. i gave up n gave halil a call... *I will be right there soon*... and so we waited outside the apartment entrance door at the stairs...waiting peacefully...


3 cars suddenly stopped in front of the apartment. One guy came out rushing.. practically jumping over the fence of the apartment while the 2 guys from the other 2 cars was saying...*yapma* (dont) as they tried to calm the angry guy... they were right next to we were sitting as the guy started to bang the door..etc..etc...


I got scared. I knew somone was going to be in a fight. I couldnt ring the door of özlem n halim coz the 3 guys were exactly in front of the apartment door.. i didnt want them to enter the apartment...

so i told the kids to wait outside the apartment fence near the road ...Hatice i saw was scared..really scared... she has still not gotten over the thief experience in izmir... and i dont think she will...

The angry guy in question started to bang the window (ground floor place) of the person he was angry with ... that left the front door of the apartment free...


I didnt know why i didnt try to go to the next door apartment.. the zaim brothers r there too...i guess like hatice, i too was remembering the izmir experience... i was not able to think straight...

Luckily özlem(my sis in law) was in the balcony... she saw us n asked what happened...i asked her to open the apartment door lock n we went straight to their place... Hatice started to cry as soon as she entered özlem's place...we all then went to the balcony to see what was happening...


The people involved were gathering... the angry guy was shouting... a lady was screaming her head off...angry... people were trying to calm each other....bla bla bla.. it was not a nice thing to see.. Thankfully, the angry guy didnt bring a gun coz according to özlem, the last time he was there, he was with a gun...

Halil came to özlem n halim's place 5 minutes later... and later we all went back to our place...

Hatice is reliving her fears... she is sleeping in our bed for tonite... she is sensitive to these things..easily affected... i am strong but i am afraid too....fear this time paralysed my logics. That was a grave mistake.. i could have endangered my kids... Allah korusun...

while putting her to bed, i tried to explain to her what was happening... but what touched my heart was....when she asked me....

*Anne bana söz ver... onlara gibi... boşanma*
(Anne, promise me... dont get divorced like them)

I reassured her that *divorce* is not a vocabulary i toy with...that i love her father with all my heart and might.. as i am confident that he ..i..



*söz veriyorum*
(i promise)

as i said that to her... i just couldnt imagine the child of the couple who is stuck in between the fight of her parents... how deep r her scars... how traumatic her life will be...May Allah help her... *****************************************************



Yes.. i know.. i am guilty as charged... i have been missing for a long time... i have been trying to write this entry about sapanca since ..well..u can see the date of this entry... many many days ago....

but.... i dunno... i just dont feel much of the zest of life these days... am i subconciously still grieving after the death of my nephew? it is possible... there is this feeling of nothingness in me... like i dont feel like doing anything... i am not even contacting anyone much from the blogland these days..nor do i visit their blogs... this is a stage of life i suppose will pass.. soon hopefully..

Sapanca was....well... it was Sapanca... but the main highlight would be when everybody got together and we all spent the day together...even Funda's mom was there too... n we celebrated meşe's birthday that day..it was nice.... I wont waste my time much with words... here r some of the d snaps taken in Sapanca... some by me and some by Funda...

The uncles teamed up as a team to bully the nephews...n nieces

At the sapanca lake...n believe it or not.. i just sort of sprained my ankle half an hour before that..and for half an hour, halil n i cycled the boat at the lake.

The end result?: i couldnt press my feet that nite.. n had to practically limp very painfully for a few days... but the fact that i stayed in the pool for many hours helped the ease the swelling...

Hatice, Keremcan n Zeynep..

just look how they hav grown up...

This year, minik mustafa came to Sapanca for the first time...

Halil was in istanbul..so mıstık, the kids n i went on the big tour *jungle trekking* together
(and my was still sort limping still hehehehe)
After the jungle trekking...before the pool...a glass of milk and a banana each for strength

Sapanca-the Zaim family with Funda's mom as the special guest

İlayda,her ll sister n her parents was with us on saturday...they were playing jump jump

..even safa joined in hehehe

the 3 cousins in the pool.. it took me hours n hours of walking with hatice n baddin to find the right swimming suit for her.. it was either too small or too tight or she didnt like the pattern...girls!

Halim n the twins

Somebody's socks heheheh

They r still bulying the younger ones hehehe

d cook as snapped by hatice

Thank You for hopping by...Hope to see u again the next time..