Missing her..
I am fine really dear sis... nothing bad is happening... just been busy with going to Hatice's school almost everyday ever since last week..etc..etc...emotionally, i am fine... just pure exhaustion takes away the zest i have for life..esp the zest to update my blog....i do sooooo am really in need of a vacation... cant wait for this 13th.....no cooking.... no cleaning... no tidying up the apt... even if it will only be for a few short days :0)
Yesterday... and even today... her voice echoes in my mind... i miss her saying...
*Anne.. başım ağrıyor*
(Anne, i have headache)
almost everyday she walks into the place...
i miss looking at her face...everytime baddin swarmed her with his babbling...and her looking at me saying silently... *do have to deal with him?*... but in the end she would just say
*ne guzel... tamam...*
(that's good... ok
as she hugs him while trying to take off her shoes n windbreaker..
i miss fighting with her....listening to her complaining about some parts of her body that hurts (she always hurt herself somewhere heheheheh..like mom like daughter)....and her asking me..
*anne..bugun yemek ne var?*
(anne... what is for dinner)...
If it is something she likes..* hemen yiyelim o zaman* (in that case lets eat now)
but if it is something she dislikes... she would just plead... *sonra olur mu* (can i eat later?)...but she would still finish her food silently...
There was also no Doa reading before bedtime on her bed... just me hugging baddin in his bed..reading the doa all on our own... i had to read the part she used to read as well... making me wanna cry.....but then i knew...it was and is something that she needs to do as a part of her growing up....
It was her first sleepover at a school's friend's house last night... When i called her, she was doing fine... totally happy to the fact that i had allowed her to sleep over at her friend's place named *Ece* (pronounced Eje). for one night... She was to go to school straight from Ece's place today.. i cant wait for her to finish school.. i do miss my daughter so much....my only comfort was.. she was n is happy over the whole thing...
And i have met my *possible future son in law* hahahahahaahahaha to read it...please jump into her blog and read the one with the title *the crush* hahahaha
Thank You for hopping by...Hope to see u again the next time..
Labels: my thoughts
posted by simah at
8:41 AM
14 Comments:
ler.. aku ingat kemana ler menghilangnya anak pompuan hang yang sorang tu...
imagine that yr mum have not seen yr face for brapa lama dah la nie? apa agaknya perasaan dia??? (saja nak buat hang rasa bersalah.. hee.. hee..)
mummr rizq
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oittt mentang mentang la hang nak balik jumpa mak hang makan udang besaq besaq tu..aku jugakk hang dok sakat *chuckles*..
mak aku tak pa... dia ada anak dia 5 ekoq lagi kat mesia tu... kalau aku balik pon mesti kena kutuk sebab badan mcm gajah... just trying to escape dari kena kutuk hahaha
hang tau tak ada ka mak aku panggil aku *muka pizza!* ?? lepas tu ayah aku kat belakang tu cakap.. amboiiiii... badan macam *ayam tonggong!* hahahahahaaha... awat hari ni semua dok sakat aku ni? :0)
Hi Simah, you suda restless, huh? Need a break?
Send kids over to nenek's house, you and hubby fly to Malaysia, Trengganu, Tanjung Jara dua minggu, sit on beach pegang tangan, tengok bulan dan bintangs, come back with sun tan, lots of coconut drinks, chendol, ikan percik...you'll feel good. Ha ha.
Hmmm, I think I need one too.
Best regards, UL.
So, is she back home from school by now? Kesian mak Hatice ni ... But then, dear Simah, we all have to learn to let go. I too have a hard time letting my kids stay over at relatives' houses overnight, or go on school trips, but as they get older, it happens more often. Lama-lama biasalah. You are lucky, I guess bcos you may not have had to leave your kids at home overnight while you go somewhere ... Dulu I often had to travel on the job, especially when my eldest was small. That was even harder to do.
Well, anyway, did your princess have a good time and how did she cope spending the first overnighter at her friend's?
SImah dear,
I know how you feel.
Letting go of your flesh and blood takes time, for some people.
Some are more than willing to relinquish their responsibility when someone said the word "Sleepover"
It depends on the time of bond and nurturing you raise your kids with.
Look at it this way, it gives you more time to yourself :)
Another comfort is she'll always have you to love her unconditonally and unreservedly.
Take care!
SImah dear,
I know how you feel.
Letting go of your flesh and blood takes time, for some people.
Some are more than willing to relinquish their responsibility when someone said the word "Sleepover"
It depends on the time of bond and nurturing you raise your kids with.
Look at it this way, it gives you more time to yourself :)
Another comfort is she'll always have you to love her unconditonally and unreservedly.
Take care!
Amboi-amboi, tu baru semalam jer (ingatkan apa tadi)...bayangkan si Hatice tu dah kena pinang esok2? Maklumlah bakal menantu dah sediakan...heheheh. You're going to have a terrible empty-nest syndrome!
In the mean time, another bun in the oven perhaps? *lari!*
Melady Simah:
A gift for you.
Forgive me if this is too long, it is the only way I know to show repect and awe to thoughts of a friend in this intangible plane.
Seeing Blind
Hello,
I am new here,
I came from a land of the bewildered,
I have no friends nor lover.
Would you come closer to this tired traveler,
so that I can see you a little bit clearer,
please do not have no fear,
as I am a paralized blind from ear to ear,
a gift i got from me deeds in the coming years,
as a sentinel for devilish deers.
Now, now, do not be wary,
as a blind could never see,
there fore I could never pinch your little tootsy,
like what the demonic diety did to me,
so there is nothing for you to worry.
What is that you said in me hands you see?
that makes you head go weepity wee,
ahh, no, no, don't you go awry,
I'll tell you of the things I brought with me,
so you'll see a what a blind man sees.
A wand in my left and and a torch in me right hand,
is much appropriate for a blinded man,
one for shining the routes to thid land,
the other for telling an enemy from a friend.
A straight line crossed with a cresent on my neck,
a sign of me religous pack,
an order of sinning saints,
who seeks the pleasures of pain,
in hope one day I will again,
be a saintly sinner who preaches out pious blasmephemies,
making me an enemy pf the blasphemous piety.
As for this coarse velvet that I wore,
I know it is an eye spre,
but it is a precious gift from me lady whore,
who reminds me we are whoring ladies,
who love to be barbaric gentlemen,
and kill gentlemen barbaricly.
Worry not child,
as i am blind as a blind could be,
and all I know is the darkness that in it you be,
it is the light that helps me see.
tak pe , biarkan dia berkawan , sekali-sekala kena jugak let her enjoy herself ..afterall she's with her friend that you know.... haa tido malam boleh peluk baddin lebih sikit...ehh silap ...peluk Mr H ....hehehe :P
baru sehari!! hehe.. macam mana kalau dia bersekolah jauh ya..
hhaha...ini baru sleepover cik simah oi. KAlau pi uni kat oversea ka...apa ka....lagu mana pulak tak tau la.
Uncle Lee
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not restless.. just exhausted :0(
ala..uncle, it wouldnt be a good idea to be on holiday with just halil n i all alone coz we would be missing n thinking of the kids all the time... my dream holiday is a holiday of my dream place with the kids :0)
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Queen of the House
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akak..dia lupa kat i terus!! hahaha cuma masa sebelum tido masa nak baca doa baru da teringat kat anne dia..iskh.. memang kurang asam betul heheh..but she had a great time! it was worth it :0)
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theta
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i am so used to having her around the house..memang susah nak berenggang.. leceh la bila rindu kat anak mcm ni.. like kak queen kita cakap.. i have to get used to this though :0)
at least slowly letting go is better than an abrupt letting go kan?
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rad
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another bun in the oven=?
lariiiiiiiiiiiiii hahaha
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david santos
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an a good day to u too.. thank u sir.
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demonsinme
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thank u kind sir for such a beautiful gift :0)
love it !
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loveujordan
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hahahah Mr. H i tak nak peluk la akak.. kang i kena keletek heheh
she had a great time... memang berbaloi la i bagi dia pi sana
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zino
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simpang malaikat 44! :0)
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zakiah
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kak kiah..jgn la doa anak aku pi sekolah jauh jauh.. banjir aku nanti wei..
zhengjx20160530
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