Tuesday, October 23, 2007

İ need ur support

My dearest friends...

I havent been totally honest with u. Yes... i had faced the empty nest syndrome after both my kids started school.. true, i was busy during the Ramadhan months...I was not diverting ur attention when i said that i was down most times than not...i was also not lying when i said that i was not on the pc much thus was not able to visit ur blog often...But the main reason i was not really updating my Quill of my Heart blog as often as i used to...is mainly because...i was busy focussing on my walks....



If u had been with me for a while..u may notice that i am someone with a *weight challenge*... u may also sense how i am at times were/are devoured by this inferiority complex. Being someone with the *xtra flesh* do that...it affects how one percieve oneself... in my case... my confidence. I am sure my halil or haticem or baddin love me no matter how i am physically... after all.... beauty is in the eyes of the beholder... and since i am the cleaner.. the cook, the maid in every sense in their lives.... they have no option but to love me *chuckles*...



In my life... i had gone thru several stages.... 2 main ones esp.. slim stage n fat stage... when i was still unmarried and was in the *fat* stage*..i see how people reacted towards me... i see how they tried to stay away.... and contrastively... in my *thin* unmarried stage..i see how people tried to get near...Alhamdulillah.. right now, in my married *fat* stage... i am well loved.. by those around me...but it doesnt change that fact that i have to find the *buyuk beden* (big size) clothing to suit me...i cant find stuffs easily due to my size. that affects my confidence greatly...



From the life of totaly cycling from section 2 in bangi to fakulti pendidikan, pusat bahasa, n usaneka in ukm.... i flew to turkey..to a life of pure leisure... eat...sleep n nothing else... the food? from hot n spice to cheeses and yogurt and olive oils.... that change of life pattern changed my size as well... it was only expected.... and after that..2 ceasarian births... where i actually had to look after the two kids as if i was raising twins.....i had no time of the chances to look after myself...



Now both r in school. From 7.35am till 4.35pm...monday to friday, i am free. Free to undertake something i should be doing ages ago.. i need to start losing weight. And so i found the cheapest....way to lose my weight ... no strict diet..just caution here n there in my food intake (i can never take strict diet)...



And i have been updating my *Simah n her Weight Challenges* blog for almost everyday....I was shy to tell anyone of this project.. until rad pointed out to me that this should be a challenge n not a problem..... n i hereby invite u to take a peek of my daily activity of walking... feel free to laugh... but once in a while..do throw a bit of ur kind words of motivation... coz i cant give this up...i need to set a goal.. and for now..this is my goal.....This is my focus...Wish me luck!



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Thank You for hopping by...Hope to see u again the next time..

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22 Comments:

Blogger Kak Elle said...

Simah fat or thin pretty or ugly you are still the simah we know.Looks or size doesn't matter ... what we want is good friendship:)

Halil complain ke you on chubby side?Rudi kata kak simah tak gemok lah wak...hehehe....tu perasaan you aje...dlm gambar you look ok pun.

Lain lah I badan pun lebih dari you but I couldn't careless!

October 23, 2007 at 2:25:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger simah said...

kak elle
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akak...and one of the good friendship comes from u... :0)

tak ader la.. halil mana boleh complain.. dia pun perut...mak aiiii hahahaha..

i just need to tune down my body to feel pretty again... am doing this for myself...i feel like i need to take care of myself.. tak nak la selebeh ajer (sebab i memang selebeh pun! hahaha)...

October 23, 2007 at 2:59:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger Cik Tat said...

kita exchange nak..saya tengah nak gemukkan badan..rasa buruk no muka cengkung..

October 23, 2007 at 3:02:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger Lollies said...

YOU HAVE MY SUPPORT! Sepenuhnya!!

Memang friendship to me tak ada kena mengena dengan saiz badan, tapi, in my personal opinion niat nak badan sihat is good. Bukan nak kurus gila tapi just to make you feel good and badan lebih bertenaga.

Badan i pun dah mula naik. So marilah kita sama-sama. I try to buat running on spot and some light exercise whenever I can.

JOM!

October 23, 2007 at 9:31:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger Ms B said...

Simah dear,

The fact that you are willing to take this challenge is already a big step!

We all go through this phase at some stage. Some have weight problem, some have health problem, etc. I should know cos I had 3 surgeries (all non-cosmetic related!) and 1 normal birth.

Take care dear! You'll do fine.

xox from us

ps: yes I am ANGAU! hehehhe

October 23, 2007 at 11:24:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger dith said...

Simah! I too need to lose weight! :p
Btw, tak nak cuba medication as well as adjuvant therapy? Reductil is fairly safe albeit expensive.

Insyallah, persevere and we'll succeed!

October 24, 2007 at 2:10:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Mummy Rizq said...

Simah CAN do it!

Aku pun dulu quite fat lepas beranak kan Rizq. Tp managed to slim down in 3 months and lose ard 7kg. Just CONTROL your food intake ok!

October 24, 2007 at 2:13:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Alinlai said...

aku sokong hang 110%...go simah go... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8....8 lagi.... :)

October 24, 2007 at 3:12:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Mama Rock said...

funny la you simah...awat la nak malu pasal nak lose weight. definitely orang dok encourage. I've been unsuccesfully trying to lose 10 kg - which became a yo-yo all the time. tak tau la bila nak start balik ni :) good luck!

October 24, 2007 at 3:55:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Queen Of The House said...

Simah, someone as wonderful as you shouldn't be feeling inferior just because of your weight *problem*. I have never met you in person but feel like I know you dah lama and close, that's just your good personality shining through! Wanting to lose weight to stay fit is good, and to boost up your own self-esteem, for yourself, is good. I am sure you can do it .... with the right programme and a good eating habit. Like DITH said, maybe some medication can help you along as well. Alaaaa ... tanyalah your doctor SIL tu.

We are all rooting for you, Simah. And thanks for wanting to share your challenge with us all.

October 24, 2007 at 5:52:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger sue said...

Simah..
no matter what size..we always remember your warm smile and beautiful family..

keep it up girl..!! :-)

October 24, 2007 at 7:03:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Mulan said...

betol macam kak elle & lollies cakap tu.. in a frenship, look or size tak ada langsung kena mengenanya..!!!

jgn tak tau, most of my closed ones (siblings, family, frens).. kebetulan semua xl dan seterusnya.. sebab sepadan kot..

toksah la rasa apa2 pun.. hati kena ikhlas dalam persahabatan..!!!

October 24, 2007 at 7:55:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Theta said...

The very best of luck in your weight-loss endeavour!
I'm also trying to maintain weight now after more than year giving birth.

Walking is a good exercise, I agree. I did that a lot in Holland. In Malaysia, I've problems finding a non-polluted place to take my walks :) *excuses, excuses, hehe*

October 24, 2007 at 9:49:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Simah Boleh!!Teruskan Simah!tempat tinggal Simah memang bagus utk berjalan kan?Kita ni cakap org tapi diri sendiripun kena bersenam & kuruskan badan juga ni,lebih2 lagi lepas raya ni,tapi tulah,malas betul!!Asyik excuses,kat luar sejuklah,nanti sakit pulalah,panaslah,hayfeverlah etc,etc!sadece tembel!

jawapan dari soalan Simah yg lepas,
Esim,suka makan rendang,tapi kuah kacang,nasi impit,pulut dia tak suka.Kizim,semua dia sapu,pasal makan,memang ikut selera kita.Sambal belacan fav dialah!Daha aci daha guzel!

October 24, 2007 at 11:18:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger Count Byron said...

I like you the way you are. And I adore your inner strength my girl. But to reduce weight for health reason is reasonable. If you have a group therapy you will be strong in loosing weight ( if that is what you want for your health). I believe for health reason we should try to weigh within the ideal weight band. For a man, the ideal weight in (kg) = his height in (cm) - 100. So if he is 176 cm tall, he should weigh not more than (176-100) = 76 kg.
Try getting group support.
We will always say, you are ok the way you are, cos we like you, we love you.. but you should also love your health my girl.

Selamat berbahgia di samping family. But i believe your worries are not just weight.. your new-found emptiness when your children start schooling also needs some initial support.

Maaf jika apa yg CB kata ni tak berapa kena dengan aspirasi Simah, tapi ianya adalah ikhlas dari hati seorang Pak Cik.

Smile.

CB

October 24, 2007 at 5:33:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger demonsinme said...

MADAM SIMAH:

It does not matter what size your body is, what does matter is the size of your heart.

For me, plus size people are the happiest of people the most lovable of all.

My advise is don't go for weight reduction but go for healthy body by eating right and penty of exercise.

Won't do you no good to have a slender body with a whole set of ailments - doesn't make you happy at all.

October 24, 2007 at 8:00:00 PM GMT+2  
Blogger simah said...

mama singa
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nak gemukkan badan rasanya lagi senang kot dari nak turunkan badan...
kalau u nak, i'd be glad to donate my xtra flesh hehehehe


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lollies
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tengkiu tengkiu so muc for ur support :0)

laaa u kurus dah.. nak kurus mcm mana lagi? ni naik sebab banyak sangat open house masa raya ka? but for healthsake n to feel good for ourselves... jom kita buat exerciseeee! jom!

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ms istanbul
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yes..this is actually a big step for me... insyaAllah berjaya nanti :0)

health is so precious n we dont really know how to appreciate it till it is gone huh? eh u sekarang dah sihat tak?

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October 25, 2007 at 8:59:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger simah said...

dith
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n insyaAllah..i shall persevere... with ur doas :0)

reductil? is that a pill akak? i'll ask around whether they have kat sini.. can i order online?

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mummy rizq
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caya la hang.. aku tak sempat nak buat diet lepas hatice dah mengandung lagi..lepas baddin dok sibuk layan budak budak.. sekarang baru free...insyaAllah aku pun boleh jadi lebih slim dari sekarang.. :0)

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alinlai
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tengkiu tengkiu...aku tak mau kurus keding tapi just nice...tak kering dan tak tembam.. hang doa yek?

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mama rock
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eh i tengok gambar u masa dengan mak lang dulu, u nampak ok aper mama...ur 10kg extra tu dipenuhi dengan *love*..tu yg dia tak mau buang tu hehehe

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Queen of the House
******************eh bestnya ada orang puji i (kembang kejap)... akak jgn cakap saya baik..nanti one day bila kita jumpa akak akan run a mile away kang baru padan muka *wink*


thanks 4 rooting n all ur support... resepi fizzy drink tak jumpa lagi ker akak? :0)

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sue
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thanks... amacam raya? best? sori la tak sempat masuk blog u lagi..


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October 25, 2007 at 9:08:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger simah said...

mulan
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kalau semua xl..apasal u size small mulan???? tak aci betullll :0)

memang keikhlasan yg pentng dalam persahabatan..tapi utk diri sendiri tak mau la lagi gemuk than i am right now...dah la sekarang i pakai xl ..:0)
thanks 4 ur kind words
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theta
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excuses excuses hahaha... cepat cik kak! do ur exercise! (not that u need it la kan..u kurus la wei!)
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kak nora
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ala.. akak mana gemuk pun... tapi for a walk..kat tempat akak tu tak ader ka park ker..i mean selalunya kat sana they have wonderful fields n green pak..

wah bestnyaaaaaaa anak akak tibai semua... my kids cuma hatice ada suka rasa makanan malaysia..ie kariiiiii... dia suka sangat cicah kari dengan roti...yum yum

October 25, 2007 at 9:13:00 AM GMT+2  
Blogger simah said...

Count Byron
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words from a father like figure is always treasured...
u said...

*But i believe your worries are not just weight.. your new-found emptiness when your children start schooling also needs some initial support.*

Yes.. this ,weight challenge* thing derives from the emptiness i feel in the first place... ihave a few options... to glottonize myself in depression..eat eat eat n sleep ..the way i do when i am depressed or find a healthy outlet to divert the emptiness... since my weight is an issue for me.. i have decided to work like crazy on this self appointed project...i am actually happy doing this...though when the emptiness i feel at times resurface.. i go shopping! hahahaha a woman's solution to depression...

group support is not for me coz i dont like crowd... besides... i am not so distressed my dear count... just lonely...it is a chain reaction... loneliness leads to emptiness... emptiness leads to my aim to overcome my weight challenge...

i am not even aiming for my ideal weight.. i should aim for 53kg to get an ideal look (coz i am short)...am just aiming for 60kg... one step at a time....and yes... i am still happy...n well loved :0)

Thanks dear count :0)

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demonsinme
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thank u dear sir for ur kind advice...

my ailment (back pain) is actually enhanced due to the weight gain ...to protect my back..i need to tune down a bit...among other reasons of course (self confidence...etc)...i am actually happy doing what i am doing now....i never aim to be a *stick* looking girl... with a sickly look... i want enough flesh...for a better glow...:0)

October 25, 2007 at 9:24:00 AM GMT+2  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Simah,
Being someone who has struggled with her weight from the age of 9, I know how you feel.
But you get a kick everytime u lose weight:)

October 26, 2007 at 6:57:00 AM GMT+2  
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