I shall bear another year..
u may wanna turn off the song at the bottom of this blog before attempting to listen/watxh this video :0)
If i am to be honest to myself.... this summer is the hardest to bear...4 years may not seem like a long time without seeing the faces of my love ones in Malaysia... but to this heart who bears the feeling of being away... it takes a lot of courage and pretences... that i am ok...even when i am not...sadness only my tem can detect..and in his arms only could i silently cry my heart out without having to say a thing..
it gets the hardest when all the zaim siblings got together every weekends in Sapanca with their families...
True... they r my siblings now...but my heart could not help crying desperately for my own flesh n blood siblings....mak and ayah.... along n his family...joe n his family...ayed... yana.. abi....
The news of my nephew's death feels heavy on my shoulder... i needed...i need to be there...to be among the family members in their time of sadness. I couldnt. I needed to see my brother esp to see for myself that he is ok....he.... the only one i dare not call on the phone... coz i just simply know not what to say.....i am a coward...who only ask for his feelings thru sms....
Even as i was trying to talk to someone from home desperately yesterday... his number was not i dialled...
my parents r still grieving as well... for the first time, 3 days ago... my mom asked to talk to baddin... something she never requested....talks r gloomy...of a grandson in alam barzakh...
My already gloomy heart needed a cheerful voice yesterday... and i finally got thru yana.. my younger sister... it is then she revealed that she is planning (insyaAlllah) to get married on the 8.8.2008.... to the guy who has captured her heart.....a policeman...that cheered me up....
Can u just imagine....? my youngest sister will be getting married... !! When i myself got married, she was just a kid...now.. she will get married...!!how time flies by huh? I am happy for her... Among all her admirers (trust me she has a lot)..others much richer n with higher salary jobs... her heart chooses not the money..but the goodness of the man... i really hope that she will find her happiness with him... ....
And yes my dear sister...that is a date! insyaAllah....i will be there with my family to see u being crown as the queen of the day... As much as i miss them badly this year...i shall bear another year......to see the day when my younger sister will be called a wife.
Thank You for hopping by...Hope to see u again the next time..
Labels: The heart speaks
posted by simah at
12:46 PM
22 Comments:
Ahhh...the agony! Patience is the essence. And August next year would be an ...august period! Take care
simah berlinang airmata di kelopak ni tak tahan sedey sgt entry ni...takpe another year is not long insya'allah you and family will be amongst the family soon.
My congrats to your Yana...jodoh pertemuan dtg nya dari Dia so sampa sangka pilihan nya bukan pilihan org lain kan?kekayaan tak di cari tapi hati yg mulia yg akan membawa Yana kebahgiaan.
take care u are always in my mind:)
1 more year to go.... oh!!! lamanya nak tunggu nak jumpa my anak angkat, Hatice.. err... I mean, jumpa Simah! hehehe.... I mean, u & family la kan? hehehe...
Alhamdulillah, congrats to your sis Hopefully the planning and the wedding will go on well as planned. Boleh la rombongan dari Rawang datang eh? Hee... tak malu, jemput diri sendiri.
Hey sis, u takde yahoo messenger account ke? it can do voice & web camera too. Sign up la, foc. then anytime when you feel like talking to someone back home or across the globe, who knows you may bump into them on line and can instantly chat, voice & visual. Actually that day Saba wanted to give his newly bought webcam to Halil (nak tinggalkan thru Hilton) tapi hajat tak sampai, pakcik tu terlupa la pulak. Maklum lah... rambut putih kan dah banyak.
Well, you take care Simah. We all bloggers kat Msia ni pun tak sabar nak jumpa u. I volunteer buatkan BBQ gathering masa u balik nanti eh? But they have to come to Rawang lorrr....
CHeers!
08.08.08 - tarikh keramat tu:) Wonder what i would be doing on that day:P
tak pe simah, setahun je lagi.. Alhamdulillah simah ada family yang sungguh baik di Istanbul.... ini semua kehidupan yang perlu ditempuhi.... sabar dan tabahkan hati sentiasa .
sabar simah! sakit rindu, tuan diri aje yang tahu kan?
pejam celik pejam celik, tak lama setahun tu :)
Simah dear,
You are blessed with loved ones, near and far. What matters is that they are close at heart. Some people may live with their "loved" ones, but maybe few will appreciate their presence.
Count your blessing Simah dear. You are in good hands. :-)
hugs n kisses,
Ms Istanbul & Mini Ms Istanbul
Hi Simah,
Just hopped over to say hello nak lepaskan rindu. Will chat with you soon dear. Take care. Gosh love that music. So alluringly pleasing...hmmmmmm...
sdihnya gua baca... iyelah, mesti rindu punya family sendiri...
syok juga family belah arab sana nooo... dengar kata orang2 belah sana ni musical dan suka mnari2 untuk express happiness...
august is a good month, Izhal the great was born in august... heheh...
sabar simah sabar...sabar betul hang ni la. Takper one more year to go...ala sedih la entry ni. jangan sedih sedih...
Dear Simah
Sabar yea... mcm nisak ckp juga pejam celik pejam celik.. sekejap aje masa berlalu..
Hi Simah,
I am so glad to hear that Yana chose the person rather than the crown. How wonderful there is still honesty and integrity in this world.
A lucky woman is loved and not owned. So choose the heart then...In the meantime, Simah believe me, one year will just go by ever so quickly. Take care dear.
Simah dear,
Four years seem like a long time but as echoed by Ruby, another year will pass so soon that you'll soon find yourself supervising and being the 'meeter-greeter' for the guests at your sister's wedding. InsyaAllah.
Take care and chin up!
i'm sure u'll make it for yr little sister's wedding nanti.. sedih la pulak baca entry kali ni.. teringat love ones in msia.. balik macam katun, tak sempat nak jumpa semua pun..!!
simah,
Trust all the people who cakap 4yrs is nothing - look at me, almost 5yrs already but still no batang idung thesis berkeliaran! (i know, i know - totally irrelavant but I wanna cheer you up!)
You've your family here & there - both are always in your heart. Klu pun tak ketemu lagi di dunia, insyaAllah akan jumpa di akhirat!
What's important now, start counting down and prepare for August 2008!
Tu, bukan main lagi Ibu dah janjikan bbq in your honours...silap2 nanti you turun kapal, ada pasukan sorak2 and papparazzi tunggu kat main entrance - next day -headline on the main page - Simah n family are here! Semua orang serbu you sampai tolak2 lagi, pastu ada yg pengsan....
Pastu tu sampai you boleh demand ufti - sapa nak jumpa mengadap kena bawak 'hidangan'!!!!! Hahahahahah
wau! simah is coming back to malaysia next year insyallah! good for you. and congrats to yr not so little yana..
insyaAllah... ada rezeki hang tu :)jgn sedih2 ... nanti semua org kat sini sedih juga :(
dith
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august..insyaAllah tarikh keramat for me :0) doakan la boleh balik yea? nak balikkkk kalau tak memang i nangis gila la :0)
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kak elle
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thanks.. memang hati yg membawa kebahagiaan..i pun pesan biar carik lelaki yg baik... kalau kaya tapi tak baik pun tak elok..tapi kalau kaya dan baik lagi la best hahahaha :0)
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ibu
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sponsor BBQ gathering? boleh hehehe bab makan saya tak pernah tolak *wink* kang marah si saba nanti :0)
saya ada yahoo akak tapi masalahnya family saya kat penang ni depa bukan main internet sangat... my adik adik busy nak bukak ym..so tak jlan jugak nak chat dengan depa... main tepon ja saya seminggu sekali..
hazia
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anything u wish to do :0)
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loveujordan
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sabar dan redha dan bahagia dalam rindu... huwaaaaa :0)
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mama sarah
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speaking with true emphaty... lepas ni u rindu uk lak ker? :0)
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ms istanbul m mini miss istanbul
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what u say is true tapi rindu punya pasal kekadang otak tu jadi sewel jugak :0)
i know i am lucky..am counting my blessings
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ruby ahmad
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u r back! *hugsssssssssss*..rindu tau! lama betul u cuti dari update entry! :0)
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izhal
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happy august birthday to izhal the great then :0)
dunno about orang arab.. tapi orang turki memang suka memnyanyi dan menari.. bab bab goyang pinggul tu....hahah marah kang puan fara! :0)
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zakiah
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pms kot? hahahaha tak sedih dah.. :0)
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ajzie
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gamaknya berapa kali nak kena pejam celik sampai setahun yea? hmm :0)
thanks 4 trying to cheer me up :0)
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lucky ahmad
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*A lucky woman is loved and not owned*
how very true.... insyaallah my sister has chosen the right guy.. she sounds happy at least :0)
cant wait for that one year to come.. nak balikkkkkkkkkkk
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theta
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thanks for trying to cheer me up :0)
i suppose daily life chores will speed up the time... i mean this summer..summer holiday is nearly over n i tak terasa pun yg 2 months is almost gone..
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mulan
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u r back! hugs...nanti i masuk blog u yea... tapi kan mulan..u balik kartun pun..u r lucky in the sense that boleh balik tiap tahun.. ok la tu... :0)
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rad
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hahahahahah thanks 4 making me laugh...tapi i for sure nak jumpa u! my mom sure akan drag me balik kampung punya..so in between penang-kl-seremban n n9... tu keep in touch :0)
nak tengok betul ka makcik rad ni pemalu hahahah
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mummy rizq
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on behalf of my not so little yana.. thanks :0)
adik aku dah nak kawin.. dia langkah bendul..abang dia tak kawin lagi :0)
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alinlai
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tak sedih... melalak dalam hati ja ..dah ada blog melalak dalam blog lak hahaha:0)
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